I have run in much worse conditions the past few months, but I just didn't want to this day. As I then looked at other runs lined up for the week, I reshuffled things around but due to work schedules it meant that I would have 2 long runs on back to back days at the end of the week - when I would be even more tired. So - the excuse to not run at all had the potential to upset later runs in the week. I was not looking forward to Friday and Saturday.
Monday I did an easy and fairly unproductive 8 miles on Santa Fe Trail. Just an out and back at an easy 8:40 pace. In reality it was just a mileage filler. Probably has some benefit down the road, but I couldn't on the day and can't now say it was a very purposeful run.
Tuesday was supposed to be a Mt Herman double lapper, 10 steps into my run I was looking for a place to lie down and take a nap. I was so tired. I had the day off work so I knew I could take all day - but again my mind was saying just don't run at all. Adding to the lethargy was Sunday's snow was heavier on Mt Herman, especially on the Northern, heavily treed side which has yet to get the sun on most of it this year - so a snowy track made things even slower for me. I plodded / shuffled / meandered around the first lap - my slowest time ever and I was battling the mindset to quit the whole time. I finally finished the lap and decided that instead of bailing out on the next lap I would shuffle around for a few more miles. I found another trail near the parking lot and went out that 1 1/2 miles and then back. So I ended up with 11 on the day - at well over 3 hours. Pitiful.
The possibility and likelihood of me just cutting the desired 65 mile week short was now there. And frankly it didn't bother me much at all. Next day I was only going to do 6 miles, then take Thursday off to try
Friday, 22 mile long run on tap. Started at Northgate trailhead and went North on Santa Fe Trail, up to Palmer Lake, joined the connector trail to the Greenland Trail and then followed that to the turn off to Kipps Loop. That was 11 miles and a good place to turn around. After going out at an easy 8:50 pace I then came back at an 8:40 pace. Felt comfortable. Last 4 or so miles the breeze into my face picked up, adding to the fatigue, but I managed to hang on and finish the 22 miles without slacking off the time. A decent, but not great run just over 3 hours and 12 minutes.
Saturday: had the day off work and kids soccer games were not until noon - so I had time to meet up with Steve and we did a conversational lap of the Falcon Trail. Was a good and easy run, 2:03, and made all the more better by sharing the trail with Steve - along with approx. 4 or 5 dozen other runners and Mtn bikers.
So, 65 miles for the week. A mental roller coaster that was not particularly great. But that is behind me now and I look forward to a planned easy / recovery 40 mile week.